I Quit My Job (And Now What?)

...yes, really.

Yesterday I handed in my notice and resigned from my job as web editor in fashion...to be a freelance writer.

After over a year of feeling like I had to love my job just because that's what's expected of you if you're a fashion editor with a permanent contract in this economy, I finally had an epiphany on Wednesday. I had spent almost the entire day in a showroom looking at SS13 pre-collections and had to go back to the office afterwards and face all of the emergencies of the day. While I was answering emails, it just kept coming back to me how much rather I'd be at the animal shelter or at home on my couch watching the Hart of Dixie finale (btw if there are other Hart fanatics out there that want to talk about the finale...get in touch with me! Eheheh) and I left the office with this thought shining in my head in neon lights:

I don't know what I want, but I know that I don't want this anymore.

(I even think I Tweeted it).

At home, I changed into my very fashion editor-y holey old sweatpants, collapsed on the couch with a huge glass of almond milk (my favorite new thing to drink! So freakin' delicious) and thought long and hard about my options (after Hart of Dixie, of course).

What did I really have to lose?

Well. The security of a monthly paycheck, of course. But who cares about that when you've got the freedom to sleep until ten o' clock every morning, right?

Financial insecurity and lazy mornings aside, the bottom line was that I wanted to concentrate on myself and my own goals. What I really want is to be an awesome writer. And it wasn't happening for me at the office. Even if I love some parts of my job (I work with some of the funniest people on the planet, I swear), I feel like there's SO MUCH MORE out there that I can't wait to explore. And if it means having to fold t-shirts at Zara or make coffee at a bar for a couple of months while pitching article ideas, interviewing cool people, brainstorming and writing, then so be it. So I slept on the wrong side of the bed (for a different point of view), thought about it a day, talked about it with my friends (all of whom very supportive) and went for it.

Yesterday morning before going into the office I was terrified, but now that it's done, I have to say I didn't expect to feel this elated about my decision. I feel light, free and inspired about my future - things I haven't felt in a long time. Maybe it's because my job agreed to be one of my freelance clients and let me keep doing the same work, but from the comfort of my apartment (or California Bakery). Or maybe it's because in exactly one month, when my alarm goes off, I'll crawl out of bed blissfully knowing that it's the last time in a long time that someone else tells me when to get up.

I know that many people would not agree with me. And trust me, I'm scared out of my mind. But for once, I prefer fear to complete apathy. Sitting in an office all day just isn't for me anymore. It may be again one day, even soon, but right now I just want to try standing on my own two feet and see if I can live this amazing life that I've been dreaming of for a while now. The one where I wake up when I want, have lunch with my boyfriend or my friends every day, write what I want and when I want...and work on this blog a lot more. Sure, there are going to be some sacrifices, for example the deleting of the word "vacation" or "day off" from my vocabulary or having to think about things like taxes and saving my receipts for things that can be deducted (I hate receipts so this is a huge pet peeve for me!). But it's worth it to wake up every day and feel that I'm investing in my own happiness and my talents. And changes are in the works for Coffee and Heels as well. Follow me on this rocky road...


  1. In bocca al lupo, Sascha. Hai tutte le carte in regola per avere successo anche in questa nuova avventura :)

  2. This post and your way of thinking are such an inspiration for me and I might say for everyone reading your blog. Wish you all the best in your new life :)

  3. Aww good luck!

    Hart of Dixie has only just started in the UK but I'm enjoying it so far!


  4. Sweetie,I said it before and I will say it again, I'm so proud of you! You will be successful and this is just the beginning for you! Just keep writing :-) the finale, oh my Lord, it's what I have been waiting for the whole season! But you know how I feel about it :-D lots of love, kisses and hugs!

  5. Siamo tutti orgogliosi di te Sascha!credici e insegui i tuoi sogni e vedrai che andrà tutto bene!!!!!^___^
    evviva il balletto delle dimissioni!!!;))
    cmq m devi presentare i tuoi colleghi super simpatici Ehehhe :P

    Wade <3

  6. Congratulations! I've just done the same (handed in my notice) after a year of juggling part-time employment with freelancing, and it's the most liberating thing. Freelancing is tough but very rewarding. Looking forward to reading how you get on!

  7. Un super mega in bocca al lupo e un super mega abbraccione!
    Essere coraggiosi e crederci fa già metà del lavoro, sempre!

  8. Emma: wow, I'm happy to hear that someone else's in my situation in this moment. I'm reading your Freelance blog too!

    Ilenia: GRAZIE! piango giá al pensiero di non lavorare piú con i miei colleghi! Peró anche loro se ne stanno scappando verso nuove avventure!
    e si cosa si puó dire della finale?? WADE!! <3

  9. I'm soooooo excited for you. Looking forward to hearing how your new adventures turn out. Bubbles of Love from me to you!

  10. Wow, big step, congratulations and good luck!!

    X Elle

  11. I hope you are happier working freelance.

    I am a big fan of hart of dixie but no one I know watches it! I wish we didn't have to wait till september till the next season
    amber x

  12. Wow thats so exciting!

    I wish you all the best :)


  13. I love the pictures at the end of this post. I'm a writer too and even though I love writing, I'm kind of hating my job right now. I'd love to be freelance (or to be Carrie Bradshaw, the way all of us girl writers think we can be ;) )

    Good luck on your new adventure! xx

    ps. I have a lot of respect for you for doing this, I wish I was brave enough/ had the funds to do the same!

  14. Charlotte: thanks! I have ZERO funds though. I'm just about the poorest writer you'll ever meet, living in a studio apartment with a just-as-poor musician. Luckily, I do have a couple of freelance clients lined up already, plus I'll keep my job on a freelance basis, which is nice.

  15. Molto carino il tuo blog! Mi metto tra i tuoi followers, vuoi seguirmi anche tu?

  16. Hi Sascha, your post actually reflects a bit of what I wrote today, check it out: www.nadinesilva.it

    It's such a nice thing to hear of young ones like us make the jump to be who they really want to be. It's in these moments we grow to be what we are supposed to be.

    Wishing you all the best!

  17. okay so I came to have a look and I love your blog!

    Also, that is totally awesome you quit you job. Now go live your dreams! :) easier said than done right? but seriously...go!

    BTW - massive Hart of Dixie fan over here. I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT FINALE!!!!!



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